November Rain,Cold December

So the new year is here and it has been 2 weeks since. Didn't kick off the new year with a bang like usual. The quiet change was something I long for but not the reason behind it. So unexpected in within the final month of 2009, whirlwind of emotions stirs up inside due to the death of my dearly late father. Everything happened so quick in a blink of an eye.There weren't any signs to tell he was going. He' has always been a fighter,with his numerous hospital check-ins, Alhamdulillah, he always survived every operation he had to undergo, then.

Final goodbyes was left floating like a lost soul floating between heaven and hell. When he left I wished I had spent just one more day with him. But i've overcome that regret although there are times I still wish I have a picture of just us together ='( I'm left with just memories. My birthday too was quiet.

Losing one the biggest love of my life has hit me with the truth of more challenges to come. Pain still remains,sadness,grief but I can still be happy. I'll overcome this in my own pace.I'll cry when I want to,when I miss him. This doesn't mean I won't be able to move on. But the good thing to what happened gave us all the time to reflect, to realise the love that's been there all along.

Thank you for lifting my spirits with your wise jokes in my moments of sadness.Thank you for taking care of me,for taking me in. Thank you for being the rock of the family.Thank you for being the greatest dad,thank you for being you. Thank you for everything Pa! I'll miss you.You will forever be in my heart.I love you everyday<3